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Got a call back from the doctors office and they are sending in the paper work to the insurance company to get approved.  This is for the botox by the way, the nurse is really hoping to get him in sometime next month.  I'm not giving up my hopes though I know how slow they run.
Phoenix is slowly getting his last set of molars in which means no sleep for mama.  On top of that Tristen is just being a 4 year old who doesn't like to listen, talks back, hits his brother and friends, cries at EVERYTHING and I mean everything and we feel like we are loosing our grip on him.  We had to take away all his games and really limit his tv time.  I don't know if he is acting out just because its the age or because he feels neglected.  I know I do spend more time with Phoenix, but I'm his only means of getting around.  Its really been hard on me to divide my time and get all the things I need to do with Phoenix done.  I feel like I don't do enough therapy with him and that's why he's not walking or sitting yet.  What if I did more, what the heck if? 
Yesterday was better we kept all electronicss off and the boys played well together while I cleaned then I played with them for a few hours with no interruptions.  But its really hard to just sit and play with them all day, I think about all the stuff around the house I should do or just something else.  I love my kids I really do but playing cars, puppy, or coloring can only entertain my adult brain so long before I go nuts.  Hoping today or tomorrow we can get to the park a little for some fresh air and sanity.
I'm really excited for the holidays but a part of me is anxious for them to be over.  From now till January its just going to be really stressful, somethings got to give.  And as always when we are in our most trying times, things always seem to work themselves out.
So here it is only 9am, both boys are screaming at each other I'm about ready to fall asleep, one cup of coffee down, laundry half started house a wreck, grocery list long and we have already been up for 3 hours....god help me.