Two more days

I really shouldn't feel anxious about Phoenix getting tubes, I think the part that freaks me out is the anesthesia. We met with the anesthesiologist and just talking about him going under almost had me in tears.  They will give him a sedative so the separation from us isn't as bad....BLAH!  And then we have to leave him go.  But at least Tim used a vacation day so that I don't have to sit by myself having panic attacks alone.

On a good note, we decided to take a day trip to the beach yesterday.  And we had a most wonderful time.  It took us a little longer then we thought, and the stupid state beach was closed...but we happened upon a smaller inlet where there wasn't any waves and actually were able to take both boys out in the ocean/bay.  Tristen was all for it, he had a life vest and a boogie board and was in all by himself.  And Phoenix, I've never seen smiles on this kid so big.  After the beach we checked out the board walk and let the boys on some rides.  Phoenix did the carousel twice squealing and waving at all the other horses, and rode with Tristen on a car ride five times.  Tim and I were so proud to see our little boy be able to ride on the rides....it made the whole trip worth it.

I am so content in our life right now, the boys and Tim and just wonderful and I couldn't be blessed with anything better!



Happy happy boy